First Teenage Love

In life I feel that it’s important to feel loved,whether that’s familial love, friendship love or even relationship love, but no one prepares you for that first teenage love. I’ve always been one of those girls that was so strict on dating and who I would eventually bring home to meet my family, and especially who I was willing to let become a constant, permanent person in my life.  I thought about making a decision like that when your brain isn’t even fully developed yet to know that they’re the one, but that was until a random sweet boy from November ‘24 came into my life unexpectedly. The time I spent with him was so innocent, pure, and loving. and as a girl that never got to experience their dads love or even just a fling. That’s what made my love for him so special. He didn’t care about my past or my looks,he cared about me on the inside. We spent so much time doing the little things like picnics while watching the sunset, late night car rides, listening to music, aquarium dates, talking about the future, and most importantly doing absolutely nothing and just enjoying each other’s presence. I finally got to experience love from a man. Being someone that felt so unlovable for years, he has taught me love. Sometimes I’m not sure if I was truly and conditionally in love, but I knew he meant the world to me, I loved the way he would say my name. The way he would try and cheer me up when I was upset.  I loved when he would meet up with me at the gas station every morning before school just to say “have a good day”. I love when we would go on dates and he would tell me how beautiful I was. I loved how he would treat my family with respect, but most importantly I loved how he reminded me that I am lovable. I remembered I was capable of love again, and I was so grateful for that first teenage love.